Stay True

 

This keychain arrived in my mailbox last September. A thoughtful and timely gift from my dear friend Mia.

There have been some big changes around here. Changes I would never would have expected. I’m not someone who is particularly good with changes… but these 2 words have kept me going. Stay True.

This gift arrived just as we were taking Ila out of school. We couldn’t ignore anymore that it was not a place for her. She was anxious, angry, and just an all around mess. The whole family was a mess. It felt like we were falling apart trying to keep her together.

My head wanted her to stay in school. What would people think? How would I get my work done? Why is my child so different than all the rest? My heart told me something all together different. It told me to go get her and take her home… and keep her home. It told me to believe in her. I chose to listen to my heart.

Nearly 6 months later she has blossomed like I would have never imagined. Her little true happy self is shining through. A day does not pass that I don’t believe 100% that we did the right thing.

The thing that has surprised me the most is that I’m happier too. Happier than I’ve ever been. Yes, it’s a crazy amount of work.  I’m exhausted, but my heart sings every day.  I go to my studio to work every night, and I also work on weekends. I feel like I’m getting even more work done now. This may be because when I do have time to work, I can focus clearly. I’m not always torn… worrying about her.

In January Sosi decided to start homeschooling too. I think she saw how happy Ila and I were and wanted to join in.  So, here we are homeschooling both kids. If you would have told me this last year I would have have thought you were crazy. It feels right though, like this is the life we were always meant to be living.

I feel incredibly lucky to have a flexible job that can work around this. Life and work feel like one thing now, not separate things pulling me in two different directions.

So, I guess we’re officially out of the homeschool closet.

Stay true (it feels great!).

 

 

5 thoughts on “Stay True

  1. This parenting thing is crazy, isn’t it? We make plans, and the universe laughs. I’m so happy that you’ve figured out what makes the most sense for your family right now. That’s the biggest battle it seems to me. So much love to you all!

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  2. I was homeschooled as a kid too! It was such a great lifestyle. While you may not have as much time during the day, I’m sure your kids appreciate having more free/flexible time. It is a much more relaxed way to spend a childhood.

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  3. Ahhh, surprises are the best. So great that it’s worked out for all of you. “Life and work feel like one thing now” – lucky; I don’t think many people can say that.

    Always happy to see an update here!

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  4. oh my goodness…lori, this made me cry. so completely and fully inspired by you and the way you live your life with your heart leading your journey.i LOVE you!!!!!!

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